Happenings

Date:27/5/2010
Day: Thursday

Recently, so much things have been happening between us..
Am i really too selfish?
I really dun like to keep having conflict with u..
It seems like every single things tt i do, u always disaprove it..
No matter wat it is, u always seems unhappy.
Mayb I am really very selfish to have caused so much unhappiness ever since u are with me..
I am really trying very hard to make u happy..

There are alot of things that u dun wan me to do..
But somtimes, i really hope tt u can give me a fair treatment too..
I know tt u dun like me to be too kind to others, especially strangers..
But I always thought that the reason that you fall in love with me is because of my kindness, etc..
But all these are also the reason that you dun like me..
Haiizz.. Sometimes, i really dont know what to do at all..

As the day passes by, you seems to have lesser things to say to me..
Most of the times when we are on phone, we are always silent..
I really wish that we can be like last time..
Always so happy and sweet together..
Now, I really feel very hurt everytime we are like this..

When you told me that you dont know how to start talkin to me, it is really hurtful..
Do we really have to come to a stand that we really stop talking to each other??
Maybe I am really selfish, to get unhappy or frustrated over small things..
I should really start to train my endurance and stop being so unreasonable..

I am the one to have causes us to become like this..
The type of relationship that we are undergoing now really hurts me sooo much..
I dun wanna cry anymore.. I dun wanna get hurt anymore..
I only wanna be HAPPY whenever i am with u..
I will do my very best to make you happy too..
I promise you that i will change, change to the type of gf that you want..

Mayb I should stop talking so much to others..
Like what is known: Silent is Golden..
Well.. That might be the best for me..
Keeping to myself and not commenting much to anything nor anybody..
Mayb this way, you might be happy..

Maybe I should keep myself at home more..
Well.. That is if I am not working everyday..
So the whole schedule for me will be: Home, MBS, Home, MBS, Home, (continue respectively)..
By sticking to this, you will be much happier with me..

Maybe I should talk less and listen to you more..
Please do not scare to talk to me anything..
You can talk to me about anything, everything..
Well.. It is better than you keeping quiet.. Really..

Yappie.. These is wat i should do from now on..
1. Talk less to others, especially strangers (GUYS..!!)
2. Reframe to myself ( And my hm only, whenever i am nt working..)
3. Listen to you more den me talking all the time..
4. Always accept what you say, with acceptance instead of 'shooting' back..
5. [ To be added if there is more to go as days goes by..]

Hope that all these doesnt cause the feelings that you have for me to change..

I hope that no matter what happen, you will still know that I LOVE YOU..@!@