Seriously..
I'm getting the damn lonely feeling whenever i see those couple sticks sooo close tgt..
Especially whenever i see those 2 whenever they're tgt.
Not tt i'm jealous or anything, but its just tt i also wan someone special with me..
**sigh..
AT first, i though tt i'm starting to enjoy the life of being back to single after being stuck with someone for nearly 4yrs..
I've told ZQ before:
Me: see everyone so intimate with bf/gf... i feel like abit..*sigh
Z.Q: WEI !!!thk lehs
Z.Q: at least u gt listening ears so dun care abt BF for u betterif not u fall dwn again HOW !
Z.Q: u wan us to be sad for tat mah?
Z.Q: ii rather be selfish better den let u find a unworthful and unfaithful guy for urself to HURT urself again >.<
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Me: it seems like i'm always happy in front of u 3..
Me: but its only tt i'm pushing the emptiness aside..
Me: so wen i'm alone, the feeling would jux overwhelmed & 'swallow' me..
Me: i might seems like an independant & strong gal..
Me: but deep down, i only wan to find tt someone tt i can relie on..
Me: only wanna find tt someone
Me: i dun wanna go thru hurt & pain tt i've gone thru b4..and i also dun wanna have emptiness & loneliness..
Z.Q: well..ii believe u'll find e one u lookin for de
Z.Q: as r/s tis kind of things is far too preditable
Z.Q: we'll hab to leave it to FATE de
Z.Q: wad more findin a guy is easybudden as for hw much u noe and when will they show their true colour nobodys noeafter stead wif tat someone for afew day/months or even yrstheir true colour came outregret is e last thing u can doBUTits damn late to REGRET itso for r/s de thingy jus leave it to FATEwhen e time come u surely can find ur MR.Rite de =)
So I really duno wat to do at all..
The loneliness and emptiness tt is eating me up..
Sometimes, I can feel so lonely tt wen i'm alone in my room, i can just drop tears..
Only i, myself understand hw this actually feels likes..
**sigh..
I really HATE myself for bring like this but i cant help it..
haiyoyoyo.... cheer up mah....
ReplyDeleteu kept asking me to cheer up but u urself is not doing it....