Lost & Hurt

[[ 我相信找不到有比你更好的人你心裡理想情人是幾分
是否也會有我的份

親愛的你不要再陌生增加我戲份
我想問親愛的你把感情升等朋友變成情人
可不可以告訴我標準不要讓我一直等 ]]

Whenever i'm with u, i can only hide my feelings inside..
Do u know tt i'm actually crying inside my heart..
Even if i'm crying, there's no one who'll care bout me.
The shoulder tt i wanna lean on belongs to someone else..
I always ask u to be happy with her even though it hurts inside.
[ Am i being very silly..?? To hurt myself as long as u're happy..
I only hope tt u would understand how i feel and not avoid me at all.. ]

I really duno wat to do at all..
I just cant help but fall for u..
No matter how hard i tried to pull myself back, I only fall deeper into it..
I know wat u've told me before so it seems impossible..
I do hate myself for not being able to control myself..

Been dropping tears the whole morning..
You belongs to someone else and your shoulder can nvr be mine..
I still thought tt there's hope but in the end, u made those decision tt really did hurt me..

Can feelings be get back so easily after it had bcom numb??
I really duno at all..
If it can be lost and gain back again & again, is this called love at all??

I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL THE FEELINGS TT I'D FOR U..!!?!!